I wonder if anybody notices.
I watched a couple on the train last night... Youngish... Like 18 or 19. The guy had his back towards me on one of those corner seats. He was leaning in, pitching cheap jokes, one liners... Anything to see this girl laugh and smile. I noticed them. I notice a lot of people. Chances are someone's noticing me, right now, thumbing away on my Treo with this dumb leather flap hanging off the back...protecting my phone from myself. I'm on the subway...not biking because I got a flat yesterday. Its early for me to leave the city. I'm going home to do some cooking and some repackaging. I ordered a whole bunch of chicken and fish that needs to get separated and frozen into meal sized defrostable portions. Over the weekend I made a peanut sauce for my salmon. I'm pretty sure that was the wrong fish for it but I like to experiment.
The last year has been a whirlwind of change for me. One year ago, I was working on my failed Stanford MBA application. Ask me to flash forward then and I thought I might have been in California.
I haven't been to California in almost a year and now and now it seems like thousands of miles away now.
You know what I mean.
Who I spend my time with is vastly different now, too. I don't know if changes, through purposeful reevaluation, beget more change, or whether its that they are so disruptive that they tend to unintentially affect other parts of your life.
I'm feeling a bit small today. Summer's coming to an end. Life is settling and going to be quite busy for the next month. Two more weeks of kayaking.
This shirt has a faint stain on the front, but I keep forgetting to throw it out.
I think I need to order some books... And finish my office at home. That's key. I need a place to retreat to in order to pound out some bigness.